Fulfilment

I’ve been thinking about fulfilment recently. Below is a short stream of conciousness on it.

I’ve been enjoying volunteering as a first aider with St John Ambulance. I feel fulfilled through helping people: I feel I’ve maybe found a place to be, found my gifting.

But… is it wrong to get my purpose from that?

Only if it becomes the sole centre of my purpose.

How do I stop it becoming the sole centre of my purpose, my fulfilment?

By giving the glory to God. By being thankful for the gifting He has given me. By not taking for granted these new skills I have learned and am using. By remaining humble, not becoming prideful.

I’m off out again tomorrow. I have the week off work (what bliss it was to wake up on a Monday morning and not have to get up!) and have chosen to spend one of those days doing first aid. Or at least sitting around waiting for people to injure themselves!

Oh, and there’s a guy… I know, there’s always a guy. But I’m saying no more in case I jinx it. Not that I believe in that,  it’s more I don’t want to obsess TOO much, and if I put it down in black and white it becomes ‘out there’. This one I’m keeping to myself.

For now…

A Story of Gifts – loosely based on Matthew 8

A Story of Gifts – loosely based on Matthew 8.

“Let me put it to you this way…each of those events, demands, people, expectations…each exposes a window into your inner world revealing areas that need healing and restoration. You still believe the lie that experiencing life and being in relationship with me is about your performance. Even the person who wrongs you, or the one who places an unjust burden on you, or the one who makes you feel in their debt…any of these are a gift to you, if for no other reason than they expose what you work so hard to hide.”

So, what is it about myself that I am trying to hide, that certain people stimulate anger and irritation in me?

What is it about my ever-optimistic, loud, ‘Happy Clappy’ housemate that niggles parts of me I’ve kept hidden? Is it because I don’t have that supreme confidence in God he has? Is it because I am envious he always sees the silver lining? Though I don’t think it’s all that. He is oblivous to others in some way: the volume of his singing, the way he treats our home as a hotel for his friends on occasion shows a certain amount of disrespect for those of us he is living with. His insistence that things be done HIS way, that I adjust to him: I responded with a stubborness I didn’t realise I had. Maybe that’s it as well. He brings to the fore my own selfishness, my own desire to have things done my way. Which depresses me, because I’d really like to live on my own, but can’t afford it. Or else, with others but with certain rules. Whereas here, we have to figure things out among ourselves: and he seems to ride roughshod over what I think are basic considerations for those you live with.

There’s obviously things I need to work through and perhaps I need to start praying thankfullness for him, that he is a gift that will reveal the parts of me that need changing, the selfish, stubborn parts of me.

Or maybe he’ll just move out!

Jim Wallis in London

Jim Wallis was over here in the UK, and I’m very grateful a friend let me know he would be talking a church.co.uk about his new book Seven Ways to Change the World.

A few nuggets. He didn’t tell us the 7 ways, and although I bought the book, I’ve not got that far, having found a bunch of friends there too, so went to the pub after.

• When asked what had been the things that had got him most into trouble: Going the places you’re not supposed to go, particularly as a white, middle class Christian. Walking past those invisible ‘No Trespassing!’ signs.
• The 2 big hungers in this world are for spirituality and social action. And the movement that combines both of this will set the world on fire.
• People will get excited about this different kind of faith.
• We’re not to just ignore bad news. Revival is the good news for bad news.
• Politics is broken.
• The most effective social movements – Great Awakenings – have happened when politics has failed to address a major social injustice, and have always had a spiritual foundation.
• Faith is what moves the mountains that are the seemingly impossible social injustices: poverty, trafficking, climate change, racial injustice, and so on.
• Social change requires commitment from each one of us. We need to start in our own lives, lead in our communities and that will make a difference on a bigger scale.
• It takes time. Wilberforce put his first Bill forward 9 times, and it took another 30 years before the slave trade itself was made illegal.
• Charles Finney ‘invented’ the altar call; and got each new Christian to sign up to the anti-slavery movement there and then.
• God needs to be real and personal to sustain the commitment and faith that moves mountains.
• Hope is a choice. Cynicism comes from unsuccessful attempts to bring about a change, but instead of persisting, cynicism gives up and declares nothing can ever change.
• Hope means believing in spite of the evidence. Then watching the evidence change.
• Bad religion calls out of us our bad stuff. We’ve seen a lot of bad religion. We want to see more good religion, which calls out of us our good stuff: compassion, action and so on..

Oh, and I didn’t realise he was married to the REAL Vicar of Dibley, one of the first women to be ordained in the UK, who went on to advise Richard Curtis and Dawn French on the show.

Identity

When you comment on Blogger it asks you to ‘choose and identity’.

Well tonight Matthew I’m going to be smart and sassy, confident yet understanding and empathetic. Tomorrow I might be a little tired and grumpy.

But where is our identity?

Is it in our appearance? Is it in our job? Will you find it in family and friends? In social activities? In philanthropic undertakings?

Is it in our own strength?

is it in the smile you get from a guy/gal? Being star of the week at work?

Or is it in Jesus?

And if it does, what exactly does that mean?

Divorcing the ‘Why’ from the ‘What’

Too often we divorce the why we do something from the what we do. Why do we do what we do to help others? Why are we Christians any different from the socially-conscious person who gives money, and time, and campaigns for a better life for others? What do we have that they don’t? What can we give that they can’t?

We do because we love. Because we love God. The two greatest commandments are to love God and love others as ourselves. In helping, we are loving others as we would wish to be loved. And we do it because of grace and love: God gives us so much that we want to redress the balance, right injustices, give to others that which was given to us as a gift.

And we do it because of Jesus.

But that doesn’t mean that we use doing as a means of evangelising. There should be no bargaining, no ‘if I help you, you must come to church’. We cannot bribe people into the Kingdom of God. But we should be ready with our answers to the question: “Why are you doing this for me?” Too often, social action is used to piggy-back evangelism onto it. As St. Francis of Assisi said, we should “Preach the Gospel at all times and when necessary use words.”

When we do out of love, God will honour that and open ears and eyes to hear about Him.

Death and sacrifice – the difference

What’s the difference between death and sacrifice?

death
–noun

1. the act of dying; the end of life; the total and permanent cessation of all the vital functions of an organism.
2. an instance of this: a death in the family; letters published after his death.
3. the state of being dead: to lie still in death.
4. extinction; destruction: It will mean the death of our hopes.
5. Also called spiritual death. loss or absence of spiritual life.

—Idioms

1. put to death, to kill; execute.

sacrifice
–noun

1. the offering of animal, plant, or human life or of some material possession to a deity, as in propitiation or homage.
2. the person, animal, or thing so offered.
3. the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim.
4. the thing so surrendered or devoted.

–verb (used with object)

1. to make a sacrifice or offering of.
2. to surrender or give up, or permit injury or disadvantage to, for the sake of something else.

–verb (used without object)

1. to offer or make a sacrifice.

Sacrifice, more often than not, is a choice.

Death, usually isn’t. And often when it is, it’s a sacrifice, a martyrdom (which nowadays has become more associated with terrorism).

In spiritual terms, sacrifice is something we give up in order to ‘better’ ourselves, to develop our spiritual lives, our relationship with God. It is our choice.

In spiritual terms, death of something is out of our hands. God will end something, whether we want it to end or not. As sacrifice is painful, death can be more painful.

Death is obscene. It rips life apart, intruding on vitality and decaying it. Death is not glamorous – it is painful, noisy, messy.

But…