What do I want?
What do I want in a man? I’ve been thinking about this over the last few days. Do I really know?
Thinking about Church Boy (CB). What is it about him that I like? Now I’ve got past the obsession, what about him attracts me. Or is it just because we’re comfortable friends and can pretty much talk about anything?
But I (slightly squiffily) told him a few weeks ago that he’d spoiled all other guys for me. So I need to try to narrow it down. Just to get it a bit clearer in my head. What is it?
He’s strong in his faith So many of my friends have compromised, are with guys who either don’t believer or nominally believe, and I’ve seen how it changes their beliefs, changes their priorities, keeps them away from church, from fellowship, from community.
He’s musical Shallow, I know, but he plays a mean guitar, drums like a dream and has a voice I could melt away to! But… I love music, so that’s a good thing. Though he works in music, which means irregular working.
He’s intelligent I don’t mean he’s an intellectual boffin, but he likes to learn and likes to talk about it.
He’s honest Tells it like it is. Doesn’t play games.
He’s a good listener He likes to talk, but he’ll also listen.
He’s encouraging If I can ever pin him down for that long-promised guitar lesson!
It’s not all about him He knows life is bigger than just him, and when he’s committed to something/someone, gives his all. He’s given a lot to the church over the last year, and it’s cost him. Big time.
He’s funny I don’t always get his humour, and I sometimes think he can be childish (what man can’t?), but he’s funny. And can see the black humour in things, which sometimes is needed.
I can’t think of anything else concrete. I think a lot of it is because we know each other so well, we’ve been through a lot (church-wise) together and have seen the best - and worst - of one another.
It’s just a real shame he doesn’t like me in that way. Ah well. There must be something better to come. Whatever shape or form - or not - that comes in.
